lie

sometimes i feel like a liar, i do not lie to others but myself.
cheating myself constantly, i am only looking for peace.
Peace never come, it may never come.
However, it comes.
It comes when i feel bad about myself and my life.
It comes when i want to confess about my self and my life.
It comes when i hate myself.
i do not hate about my life. it is my life, it is mine. i can harm myself not others, i only allow me to harm myself. it is a tragedy.
i harm others, i harm those who are good to me. i harm those who care about me.
therefore, eventually, not much people care about me and i keep hurting my heart through the cause of searching for peace.
Love and Peace.
S